LARA LAGI

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merawat  rindu ku sendiri 

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sedangkan kau tahu kasihku hanyalah untuk mu 

tiada lain dalam diri ku 

takkan berubah walau dipisah laut biru 

cinta aku hanyalah untuk mu 

tak pernah goyah , tak pernah jemu 

takkan terpadam dalam hati ku 

yang milikmu 

percayalah 

mungkin sudah suratan kita 

terpisah sebegini saja 

pasti di suatu hari nanti 

ku jejak bahagia 

EVERY DAY

I STILL CAN'T CHANGE THE PAST 

NO MATTER HOW MUCH IT HURT 

to tired to HOLD ON 

to IN LOVE to let go

pretend to be okay without you but the truth is im dying inside without you 

keep waiting you everyday 

i hate myself for still waiting for you . 

"between now & then till i see you again "

i'll be loving you 

love , 

ME 

I REALLY WANT TO BE WITH YOU RIGHT NOW

AM I NOT

GOOD ENOUGH 

FOR YOU ?

FIRST MONTH 

move on is the hardest part that i must go through out alone .

i never thought i'd love you so much .

for sake God  i just wanted to be your last . 

SECOND MONTH

i was thingking that i got my right love at the wrong time .

you told me , you'll love me forever . tell me how long is FOREVER to you ?

THIRD MONTH 

"HEART FOR SALE"

 look at him , like he the only one you see . 

since you went away my heart breaks everyday . 

4th MONTH 

i should never fight with my own feelings 

because im not strong enough to face all this shit alone 

5th MONTH 

find way how to cool down .

" HOLD ON "

God knews what HE's doing 

6th MONTH 

and in the end , you'll be mine . 

you just wait ...

"SMS"

Seriously Missing Someone 

7th MONTH 

NEVER. LOSE . HOPE 

i'll never say good bye because good bye means going away and

 going away means forgetting .

everything is going to be alright INSYAALAH 

wish list

i wanna hug you as tight as i can before i go far away from you  |and |

please keep me with lots of love in your heart .

dear E , time can heal a broken heart , but time can also break a waiting heart .

dear E , i need to go now 

could you promise me that you'll remind yourself that's its okay to be perfect without me .

let me go , for the rest of my life i'm goin to search for someone just like you . 

i'm sorry dear E . 

love you so much gonna miss you .

lots of love , NIL AINA ADIBAH .

i'll survive

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
And I grew strong
I learned how to get along
So now you're back
From outer space

I just walked in to find you here
Without the look upon your face
I should have changed my f-ing lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
For someone who's loving me
now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my live to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive

SEKALI LAGI

Sekali lagi HARI RAYA 2011 datang menjenguk kita selama sebulan :)

selagi kita mempunyai ibubapa n keluarga, beraya la dengan mereka.. tiada selain itu yang lebih bermakna dalam hidup kita, hargai keluarga kita ketika masih ada.. jikalau pada hari yang mulia itu berlaku apa yang kita tidak ingini, maka kita mahu menyesal pon tiada gunanya lagi.. fikir n renugkanlah... renungan kita bersama... selamat 
hari raya aidilfiri maaf zahir n batin untuk semua...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA 

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN 

IKHLAS 

dri saya NIL AINA ADIBAH BINTI MIOR AHMAD FUAD 

p/s : raya tu raya juga , jangan lupa jaga kesihatan , keselamatan :) 

ASSALAMUALAIKUM 

what do i do when i miss you

i do miss you and i do love you with a lots of regret

should i regret ? 

now u're thousand mile apart from me , i crazy just because of you 

anything crazy is all about you 

since i lost u i felt like i lost my GOD 

i lost my life , i lost my career , i lost my self to 

i'm death !

utusan untuk mu

tertutupnya pintu hati ku , dan kini ingin ku bersuara . merangkai semua pertanyaan imaginasi yang terlintas .

berjalan pada satu , hanya selalu menganggu ku , seseorang itukah dirimu kasih .

kepada yang tercinta , inginnya ku mengeluh semua usaha diri mencari jawab pasti 

akan kah seseorang yang di impikan kan hadir raut halus menyelimuti jantungku .

cinta hanyalah cinta 

hidup dan mati untukku 

mungkinkah semua tanya kau yang jwb 

dan tentang seseorg itu pula dirimu 

ku bersumpah akan mencinta 

akan kah seseorang yang ku impikan kan hadir 

someone like you

i heard that you're settled down , i heard that your dreams come true . so i guess she gave you things i didn't give to you .Dear friend , why are you so shy ? ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light . I hate to turn out  of the blue , uninvited . But i couldn't fight it . I had hope you'd see my face and that you be reminded that for me it isn't over !

hurmmm , Never mind , i'll find someone like you , i wish nothing but the best for you , too . DONT ! PLEASE DON'T forget me i begged , i remember you said 

SOMETIMES it lasts in love , but sometimes it hurts instead 

DID you know how the time flies , only yesterday was the time of our lives !

NOTHING compares , nothing worries or cares 

regrets and mistakes they're memories made 

who would have known how bittersweet this would taste !

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY 

2 MONTH 

SINGLE 

NIL AINA ADIBAH BT MIOR AHMAD FUAD 

NEVER THINK

I never think what's in your heart  and i won't  ,but i know that u'll learn to hate me even u still call me baby . From this moment you can call me by my name , please save your soul , save your soul before you're too far gone and before nothing can be done . 

one day 'ill try to decide when he will lie in the end , i ain't got no fight in me in this whole damn world and i told you to hold of but you said hold on because it's the one thing that i've known .

OHH GOD please i know that i'm in love too much and i know that i love him more than he love me .

i was alone , i was tried but now i'm in bound , my head is off the ground . For a long time i was so weary , tired of the sound , i've heard before , knowing of the nights i'm out of the door , haunted by the things i've made . i'm stuck between the burning light and the dusty shade 

Hurmmm ... whatever makes u blind must make you strong nyl aina , from the day that i was born , i know that there is no place to hide i'm stuck between the burning shade and the fading light  :'(

i'm asking you Yes and you, well can you walk these lonely streets that people send , there are some wounds that just can't mend and i do pretend . NOW ! i'm free from all the things that takes my life far away and i will stand here till the end 

i was broken for a long time , but it's over now . its over  :'( 

MOVE ON

DON'T cry because it's over nyl but smile because it happend .Letting go isn't about giving up , it's about accepting  that there are things that cannot be anymore .Life is really about moving on .There's one quote that i always keep using untill now is when life gives you a hundred reason to cry , show life that you also have a thousand reason to smile . The things is no matter who broke your heart , or how long it takes to heal , you'll never get through it without your friends. 

hermmm ,nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to  you , but you meant nothing to him  and one more thing is everyone tells me i should forget about you , you  don't deserved me but i deserved you.Last but not least if someone you love hurts you cry a river, build a bridge , and get over it .

NIL AINA ADIBAH , ASSALAMUALAIKUM XD

The Hardest Part of Letting Go

Kesian sangat kat diri  aku sendiri , sampai dah tahap kesian kat diri sendiri tu dah tak dapat nak buat ape lagi lah . tak menang tangan nak selesaikan masalah , belum habis satu datang lagi satu . belum slesai satu dah datang lagi satu . kesian sangat kadang tu teringin sangat nak bahagia macam orang lain . tak sempat nak bahagia dugaan tu melimpah-limpah datang duk benam diri aku ni :)

Ape boleh buat kan . kesian sangat tegok diri aku yang berusaha nak ceriakan diri aku balik , nak happy kan diri aku balik , nak sembuh kan luka aku balik . sedangkan orang lain yang sakitkan hati aku , orang lain yang buat aku tapi at last aku jugak yang sembukan diri aku sendri kesian kan :)

Bukan lah nak mintak simpati , cuma nak mngadu isi hati , 

siapalah diri ini , yang sering dikhianati .

mencari penawar hati untuk mengubati diri , 

semoga suatu hari nanti , aku akan ceria kembali 

dengan ini ingin aku mengundur diri , izinkan aku pergi 

ASSALAMUALAIKUM :)

do i regret

Do i regret - ermmm may i ask u back ? should i regret with something that i didn't know it will be mine forever .

                 
Setiap - setiap perkara yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya yang tersendiri nyl aina . kita tak boleh suka-suka nak menunding jari kepada seseorang yang belum tentu salahnya lagi .

Dendam - sampai bila awak nak jadi pedendam nyl aina . semakin hari awak semkain dewasa , semakin matang berubahlah untuk kebaikan diri awak sendiri nyl aina   .

Pengajaran : setiap yang pergi sukar untuk kembali , DON'T MAKE SOMEONE AS UR LIFE . 
jangan buat seseorang itu sebagai hidup mati kita , andai kata suatu hari nanti orang itu pergi tanpa berkata . Hancurlah segala masa depan kita . :) berdikarilah wahai nyl aina . bangkitlah kamu dari kejahilan , berdirilah kamu atas kelemahan mu sendiri , kenalilah dunia mu sendiri nyl aina , hargailah setiap kelebihan kamu wahai sayang. INSYAALLAH dengan kelemahan dirimu , segala dugaan yang kamu hadapi akan mendapat keredhaan dari ILAHI . jadikanlah ketabahan mu sebagai bekalan mu selama kamu mengharungi lautan dugaan yang besar lagi luas itu . Gunakanlah akal fikiran mu sebagai senjata kamu untuk menempuhi segala bala tentera masalah yang menyerangmu kelak , ingatlah pada yang satu NIL AINA ADIBAH, yang tidak jemu membantu kita , melindungi kita wahai kaum hawa ku syang iatu ALLAH s.w.t

assalamualaikum :)

JANJI

JANJI

Pernah kah kau mengerti perasaan hati ku 

Ku cinta kamu hanya itu aku tahu 

Dan takkan terulang lagi silap ku yang dulu 

Meninggalkan mu untuk kedua kali takkan berlaku 

Aku akan selalu menjaga dan mencintai mu 

Aku janji padamu ku tak akan menduakanmu 

p/s : for you edy nazrin I ALWAYS MISS YOU awak .

FACT

fact - i mess it up without you =(

when you said that we would be togetehr forever i thought that ment untill we died but i guess forever isn't as long as it used to be .

why -Love begins with a smile , grows with a kiss , and ends with a teardrop. I feel bad when i'm lost you !

NOTES

ME: A, B, C
HIM: What?
ME: Always Be Careful
HIM: ahan then?
ME: D, E, F, G
HIM : ??
ME: Don't Ever Forget That
HIM: ForGet That
ME: I'm H, I
HIM: What H, I ?
ME: Happilly Inlove
HIM: so
ME: J, K, L, M, Just Keep Loving Me
HIM: and how about N, O, P, Q, R, S, T, U, V, W, X, Y, Z ?
ME: No Other Person Quite, Reasonable, Shall Treat U Very Well Xcept me You'll
Zee

AT LAST

At last he said

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND HER FOR 2 YEARS IN RELATIONSHIP :)

I'm - so sorry sayang , i appreciate it , but i still can't forgive you at this moment
sakit hati sangat-sangat . TERlampau terasa hati sebenarnye .
Tak - tahu amik mase berapa lama nak elok balik . mcm biase
Bukan- tak bole take it easy tapi dah selalu sgt kita jadi mcm ni

Finally , I MISS HIM 

i miss you so much . but then i still can't accept you :(

i love you happy anniversary too sayang .

NOTES

Menapak jalan yang jauh 

Tentukan jalan yang ku mahu 

Tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa yang membuat hati lara 

Di dekat engkau aku tenang 

Sendu mata mu penuh tanya 

Misteri hidup akan menghilang dan bahagia di akhir cerita 

Cinta tegarkan hati ku 

tak mahu sesuatu merenggut engkau 

Naluri ku berkata tidak ingin berulang lagi 

Kehilangan cinta bagaikan tidak bernyawa 

Aku junjung petua mu 

Cintai dia yang mencintaiku 

Bukan kah hidup ini seharusnya bahagia 

Bagaimanapu hidup hanyalah suatu cerita 

Cerita yang meninggalkan dan di tinggalkan 

C I N T A .

DEGREE

Next - month dah masuk degree :) tak sabarnye rase .. pejam celik pejam celik setahun dah papa meninggal dunia . setahun jugak lah aku habiskan masa aku dengan kehidupan sebagai student kat LIMKOKWING ni . sedar-sedar je dah sem 3 dah .. sem final pulak tu untuk foundation HUISHHH !!! deborrrr nyeee ambe

Bulan - july ni intake for budak-budak degree . mcam xpercaye gak kadang tu tapi kene jugak pecaye :)

Alhamdulillah akhirnya tercapai jugak cite-cite arwah ayah aku , wasiat ayah aku yang nak aku sambung belajar kat LIMKOKWING ni and amik course Digital Film and Tv . SUH JADI MCM DIA :)

GOOD LUCK NYL .